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On the moment/at the location when/where the
Great Spatio-Temporal Loop has its "splice point", "Something" was expulsed
from "Nothing"
in a tremendous heaving spasm, lasting for an instant and an eternity at the
same timelessness which is the mysterious state only existing at the join-point of
the Loop, accessible to none but "Nothing" and "Something".
Seeing that this "tremendous heaving spasm" business seemed like a
desireable experience, "Something" tried, in turn, to expulse "Nothing".
And well, that's exactly what happened: the birth of Zero. Which was
all that could be expulsed out of "Something",
being that "Something" does not have the Void inside of Itself but rather
resides amidst it. So it only expulsed Zero, the concept of void, not THE
VOID itself.
Somehow, this was a tremendous disappointment. This was just not the
same kind of profound experience that the
first expulsion had been.
Because of this, "Something" became deeply and ardently jealous of
"Nothing"...and
has remained in this state of ultra-envy ever since.
In turn, however, "Nothing" managed to become fairly envious of
"Something". It grated at "Nothing" to realize that It lacked
that substantiality and consistency which is required if one wishes to do
or make lots of really
interesting and complex things.
So a feud began amongst them and it is still raging today, and every
day, and will not ever end...unless/until once again time and space
intersect at the
Splice and everything flip-flops and starts to move in reverse.
"Something" and "Nothing" studied themselves and each
other very carefully, for this is what is done in war: studying the enemy in
search of exploitable weaknesses,
and comparing oneself and the enemy, to become aware of any weaknesses there
that the
enemy can exploit.
"Something" was always concerned with making things stick to each other
and make larger things full of more of the smaller things around them.
This is why "Something" became known to Itself as CON when it
became apparent that It was apparently a meta-god of some sort, and
one that represented stuff like being, and making, and preserving. CON,
of course, means together or with.
Similarly, "Nothing" found Its own pet obsession was ripping things
up into little bitty pieces and making it so that all those pieces weren't
connected to each other anymore. And then ripping the pieces into yet
smaller pieces. Thus "Nothing", in Its own meta-godhood, assumed the name
of DE, the root prefix meaning undoing.
CON swore vengeance on DE. Ostensibly, it was about
that little inequality situation
involving the expulsion, but at this point it really began to be more for
the sake of vengeance alone. So DE commenced Its long-term
vendetta against matter...and against form...in any...well, form
at all.
CON and DE have many, many other names now. Many
call them Order and Chaos. (Although "Disorder" would be
more apropos to describe DE's vendetta acts rather than the essence of DE Itself; it
connotes the idea of intentional acts of malicious destabilization, while "Chaos"
describes what DE
represented before becoming agitated by CON:
a true Void, where matter and energy are absent, and thus there is no motion, and
no Time. The prefix-words of CON and DE seem to convey Their essences more
exactly, as
they are basic expressions of the notions of togetherness and
apartness.
CON is a fist clenched as tightly as It can clench Itself, while
DE is an
open hand spreading
Its fingers as far apart as they can go. Both can seduce, and bring misfortune; both can lead to ruin, or to
splendour. And CON and DE are very tricky; they fool each other
(and all of us who are observers and participants alike in their great
war) into doing things to benefit the other, while continuing to appear to
be aligned with their own respective essences. Let us postulate the following hypothetical sequence of
events:
A number of
individual
anarchists become organised into a cadre. They find a place to
meet. begin to
gather there, and get to know one another. After expunging the
agent provocateur assigned to sabotage the group, its members suceed in
unifying their disparate
motivations under the umbrella of a single cause. After much discussion
and research, the group constructs
a non-radioactive incendiary device in a lab belonging to one of the
cadre's more scientifically adept members...and then, after managing to
carry out a plan that begins with the evacuation of all humans on the
premises by means of a well-placed, well-timed distraction, the anarchists
successfully use their "clean bomb" to
destroy a storage sector of a military installation - one which was being
used to develop terribly
dangerous chemical and biological weapons. It is discovered when the debris is
being cleared away that the government itself had been taken over by terrorists
years earlier; the anarchists who foiled their plans became heroes. Thus placing
them in the public trust, and endearing them to the new interim government which
likes them so much they give them high-profile jobs. Years later they start
running for various offices and now have a say on just about everything.
In this series of events, which force is most being served, CON
or DE? Which side benefits the most ultimately, order or chaos?
Order is used to help further the spread of chaos (the organising
of the anarchists into a group) a portion of which is actually being
used to further the continuance of order (there is initial interference
from that pesky government agent who invariably infiltrates any group
that opposes the government, to distract its less-focused members with
trivial bullshit, and provoke the rest into foolish acts that would
ultimately get them imprisoned.)
Which subsequently backfires due to unexpected chaotic influence (the
agent provocateur becomes too cocky and talkative, and thus blows his
cover.) and chaos returns to prominence with the aid of order (the
collective, now minus its mole and galvanized by their success in outing
the spy, gathers its energy and narrows the focus of it by agreeing
to concentrate it upon a specific planned sabotage.)
Which then allows chaos to destroy much more order: (the strike
on an important military installation, which has the purpose of serving
as a defense for the status quo) thus stopping a tremendous amount
of chaos before it happens by nullifying huge amounts of both chaos
AND order (if that weapons base hadn't been eradicated, it would
still be producing weapons of mass destruction.)
Finally chaos is put in the service of order, thus closing the loop:
(In the aftermath of the explosion, it becomes apparent that the
world's most scary and well-financed terrorist organization, the Jihad/Armageddon
Axis, had infiltrated the top tier of the government long ago and
taken it over, with plans to use its power to fulfil some multiple yet
similar monotheistic religious prophecies, at the cost of messing up
the whole world completely beyond repair - which was what had gotten
the anarchists worried enough to get their shit together to begin with.
The anarchists become public heroes as a result of their deed, and five
years, later one of them becomes elected President.)
Which leaves us with an oxymoron - a government run by anarchists.
But I digress.
You see it can get pretty confusing. Convoluted, even.
One day, which just happens to also be every day there was and ever
will be, CON discovered that It had been swallowed up by DE
and dissolved into an infinite thinness of constitution.
Yet at the same time, DE found Itself caught within the grip
of CON's tightening force, constricted into a taut, dense mass.
What was going on here?
They instantly realised that it...well...felt good...at least in the
sense that weirdly disembodied personified concepts can be said to "feel"
anything.
They were making love, in the way that weird disembodied personified
concepts do such things.
This is why the world is the way that it is.
This is why things so often simply fail to make what we think of as
"logical sense".
This is why it is that the simplest things
can be so confusing sometimes...and at other times, when things
seem to be the most messed up, a strange sense of clarity can arise
from the messed-upness. All the events that occur in it are manifestations of the endless strikes of
CON and DE against each other. Some of these events inflame
our souls and bodies with passions, passions to create and destroy.
And CON and DE are also what cause us to love,
which is always
to commit acts of both creation and destruction. (And if you
don't think
that is at least somewhat true, you have most likely never
really been in love.)
These are the waves that echo from the endless paroxysmic up/down,
in/out, and side-to-side motions of CON and DE. Sometimes, if you listen very closely, you
can hear Their
tides swelling unto one another...and feel Them rolling in and
out of the space
at the edges of consciousness.
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creatrix of this matrix: demitria monde thraam